retravel: (call me after your homoerotic shower)
oh, fitz. ([personal profile] retravel) wrote in [personal profile] saviorexe 2019-03-15 11:39 pm (UTC)

[ It's not selfish, when they don't know where people go, when Connor and Vanessa and Ciri (and Mack and Jemma) could be stuck in the liminal space between universes or held by the group that drops off the displaced (and likely experiments on them, too).

Fitz knows better than to think that comforting. Instead, he smooths reassuring circles into Markus' shoulder. Oh, Markus. His dear friend, who gives so much of himself away, wanting to bypass his own pain. To what end? Is that an android's instinct — or a leader's? Perhaps it's just someone younger than he seems, yet to pause long enough to grieve for the losses that come one after the other, like tumbling down step after step. Carl and home, a cause and a body, and the one, vibrant connection to his own universe. ]


C'mon, now, feeling it isn't wallowing. [ as firm as his touch, that, though his tone is gently chiding. ] And loving somebody enough to want them by your side isn't selfish, either. [ Lest Markus insist on critiquing that trait in himself, Fitz has a claim to such "selfishness," too. ] Not a day goes by that I don't wish for Jemma.

[ A moment as small as passing another lab tech hunched over their desk, hair pulled back in a style so like hers, can be as devastating as facing the gravity of displacement alone. Quite a strange feeling, isn't it? Never wanting to be without someone. ]

There's nothing wrong with that. Just can't let it — drown you.

[ You can't allow the sadness to carve the heart from your chest — or do the deed yourself, cutting out the ache as a means to salvage the whole. You have to carry it with you; that's all there is to do. ]

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