[Lacking control is a chilling thought, a dangerous reality, to a pair of androids having only so recently broken free of the programming that kept them boxed in at all angles. Tugged to and fro — appearing, disappearing — at the behest of some unknown entity’s whim could happen to any of them, at any time, and what were they to do? Scour the city, sit and wait, hope and pray for the best?
Feel the sensation of cold dread compounding itself against his ribs as the days marched by, wondering when Connor would return. If he would return.
A muscle twitches in Markus’ jawline as he draws the other tightly near, leaning in close, feeling his partner’s breath brush against the base of his neck.]
I know it does.
[Their empathy bond would inform the other of one thing, just a ghostly presence amongst the waves — it scares him, too.]
You had no way of knowing this was going to happen. And you can’t blame yourself for not remembering; no one’s been able to, as far as we know. [But he shakes his head, inclining it towards Connor, taking in his scent when he breathes.] But you’re back. Here, with me, when I thought I might not see you again. Right now that’s all that matters.
(that's what has his grip tightening, that fear they share, feeling at once adrift and anchored by it. they're strong together, but apart he feels like he loses sense of himself. old habits die hard. he wishes they didn't, that he could just shake them and be the person hank and markus want him to be.
need him to be.
this solid hug brings him back to reality, only getting a bit of distance to stamp their foreheads together so he may look at him and prove to himself that they're both okay. they're right here, sitting on his bed in their shared apartment, just ten days later from the time he went missing and nothing else has changed. connor's endlessly relieved by it, him, his presence. he didn't know he'd been this lonely, only realizing that the moment they exchanged text messages.
how's that possible, when he can't even remember being gone? he doesn't have the first clue.)
You're right. (markus always is.) Can we... sit here for a little while longer?
Of course we can. [He breathes it out, lowly; they’re so close that a whisper of an answer would do.] As long as you need.
[And it’ll be for however long Connor needs, because Markus will sit here for the rest of the day and night if he has to, willing to keep him close. They both gain comfort from it, beyond glad to be in each other’s presence again, and finally — after days — does Markus begin to feel the corded tension drain from his middle. An unfathomable kind of relief to have him back, and though his body disperses some of its anxiety, the empathy bond allows a loneliness from Connor to slide through in return.
Markus allows moments to pass before he speaks again. Wants to offer some comfort with his words, the best way he knows how.]
The whims of time and space, interdimensional portals, the machinations of some faceless threat... Whatever the reason was for your departure, you still found your way back. Who’s to say there wasn’t some small amount of control you had over that? [They don’t know. Anything was possible when memory failed them, when they had no idea where they went or how they returned. Maybe the idea is a little romanticized, but if there's comfort to be drawn out from it, he doesn't care.]
You meant it when you said you wouldn’t ever abandon me.
(sticking there against him causes a significant boost in comfort, forehead to forehead, feeling secure enough to close his eyes to breathe this closeness in. dark eyelashes lay against pale cheeks that go pinker with the time that passes in silence, already healthier and happier in markus' presence.
what would he do if markus disappeared? besides scour the earth?
he wades in this gentle tide of traded emotions, feeling the other android's warm words on his face like sunbathed sand on hands and feet, and eventually draws back to admire him.) If you really think so, I'm inclined to defer to your judgement... you're the one who gave me the confidence to say that. (gathering markus' hands up in his own, connor raises them to kiss at his knuckles, lips lingering, soft and cherishing.)
We're partners, Markus.
(there's something final to it, like he's hit the ceiling of his infatuation. and every other day he's proven wrong, because every other day he likes him quite a bit more.)
[Gentle space is placed between them as Connor draws back, and Markus takes comfort in the look of the other. More color in his features, healthier and haler, a little more light in brown eyes. He feels his own wash of relief, glad to be the reason for it — wanting nothing more than to be the reason for it, his very existence in this moment only to make Connor to feel better, more grounded, no longer afraid of pressing forward with each day that passes.
All of it for Connor’s benefit, spoken to softly embolden him. And yet when his hands are drawn up by the other, when lips brush against his knuckles in the barest whisper of a thing, he thinks to himself of how fortunate he is to have him; someone so devoted, someone who manages to make Markus’ heart stutter in his chest when a million other things would never do the trick.
This deeply growing affection, given a jolt after Connor’s disappearance... he wonders if he can continue to live up to deserving it.]
Then it’s a two-way street. [Fingers tighten warmly against Connor’s own, and Markus leans forward again, just long enough to grant him a barely-there kiss across his brow. He's unable to fight the curl of a smile.]
You and I always finding each other, eventually, no matter what happens. Not too steep of a promise to make.
[Not for the strongest hearts, nor the most willful spirits.]
("there's always a chance for unlikely events to take place."
his own words make him sink further against markus, getting nearer to the warm kiss against his forehead. how can he enjoy something this comforting when the omissions hang over his head like a spectre waiting to steal these feelings away. to connor owed his leader then and he owes him now, for endangering the lives of hundreds — thousands — of their people, all to satisfy a desperate craving for cyberlife's validation. to be successful in his endeavours, when he failed so many times before.
fingers grasp at markus', guiding them to the shirt over his chest, applying gentle pressure to the backs of them. it keeps the powerful touch there, fills him with warmth, makes his breaths waver out of his lungs. how poignant those loving words are, how brave they make him feel — but their link be damned. he has to hide the worry and the hesitations from his new partner, shroud the bad emotions with a clever activation of his ability.
its glow is obscured entirely beneath their palms.)
I promise.
(as though it's the bond and only the bond casting blue beneath the angles and planes of soft expressions, noses brushing with a decisive narrowing of already negligible space. connor thanks him, apologizes to him, and pleads to him with a ghosting of lips over his own, the trailing press fleeting compared to their overt display at the ball. the moment it's there it's gone.)
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Feel the sensation of cold dread compounding itself against his ribs as the days marched by, wondering when Connor would return. If he would return.
A muscle twitches in Markus’ jawline as he draws the other tightly near, leaning in close, feeling his partner’s breath brush against the base of his neck.]
I know it does.
[Their empathy bond would inform the other of one thing, just a ghostly presence amongst the waves — it scares him, too.]
You had no way of knowing this was going to happen. And you can’t blame yourself for not remembering; no one’s been able to, as far as we know. [But he shakes his head, inclining it towards Connor, taking in his scent when he breathes.] But you’re back. Here, with me, when I thought I might not see you again. Right now that’s all that matters.
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need him to be.
this solid hug brings him back to reality, only getting a bit of distance to stamp their foreheads together so he may look at him and prove to himself that they're both okay. they're right here, sitting on his bed in their shared apartment, just ten days later from the time he went missing and nothing else has changed. connor's endlessly relieved by it, him, his presence. he didn't know he'd been this lonely, only realizing that the moment they exchanged text messages.
how's that possible, when he can't even remember being gone? he doesn't have the first clue.)
You're right. (markus always is.) Can we... sit here for a little while longer?
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[And it’ll be for however long Connor needs, because Markus will sit here for the rest of the day and night if he has to, willing to keep him close. They both gain comfort from it, beyond glad to be in each other’s presence again, and finally — after days — does Markus begin to feel the corded tension drain from his middle. An unfathomable kind of relief to have him back, and though his body disperses some of its anxiety, the empathy bond allows a loneliness from Connor to slide through in return.
Markus allows moments to pass before he speaks again. Wants to offer some comfort with his words, the best way he knows how.]
The whims of time and space, interdimensional portals, the machinations of some faceless threat... Whatever the reason was for your departure, you still found your way back. Who’s to say there wasn’t some small amount of control you had over that? [They don’t know. Anything was possible when memory failed them, when they had no idea where they went or how they returned. Maybe the idea is a little romanticized, but if there's comfort to be drawn out from it, he doesn't care.]
You meant it when you said you wouldn’t ever abandon me.
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what would he do if markus disappeared? besides scour the earth?
he wades in this gentle tide of traded emotions, feeling the other android's warm words on his face like sunbathed sand on hands and feet, and eventually draws back to admire him.) If you really think so, I'm inclined to defer to your judgement... you're the one who gave me the confidence to say that. (gathering markus' hands up in his own, connor raises them to kiss at his knuckles, lips lingering, soft and cherishing.)
We're partners, Markus.
(there's something final to it, like he's hit the ceiling of his infatuation. and every other day he's proven wrong, because every other day he likes him quite a bit more.)
Of course I meant it.
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All of it for Connor’s benefit, spoken to softly embolden him. And yet when his hands are drawn up by the other, when lips brush against his knuckles in the barest whisper of a thing, he thinks to himself of how fortunate he is to have him; someone so devoted, someone who manages to make Markus’ heart stutter in his chest when a million other things would never do the trick.
This deeply growing affection, given a jolt after Connor’s disappearance... he wonders if he can continue to live up to deserving it.]
Then it’s a two-way street. [Fingers tighten warmly against Connor’s own, and Markus leans forward again, just long enough to grant him a barely-there kiss across his brow. He's unable to fight the curl of a smile.]
You and I always finding each other, eventually, no matter what happens. Not too steep of a promise to make.
[Not for the strongest hearts, nor the most willful spirits.]
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his own words make him sink further against markus, getting nearer to the warm kiss against his forehead. how can he enjoy something this comforting when the omissions hang over his head like a spectre waiting to steal these feelings away. to connor owed his leader then and he owes him now, for endangering the lives of hundreds — thousands — of their people, all to satisfy a desperate craving for cyberlife's validation. to be successful in his endeavours, when he failed so many times before.
fingers grasp at markus', guiding them to the shirt over his chest, applying gentle pressure to the backs of them. it keeps the powerful touch there, fills him with warmth, makes his breaths waver out of his lungs. how poignant those loving words are, how brave they make him feel — but their link be damned. he has to hide the worry and the hesitations from his new partner, shroud the bad emotions with a clever activation of his ability.
its glow is obscured entirely beneath their palms.)
I promise.
(as though it's the bond and only the bond casting blue beneath the angles and planes of soft expressions, noses brushing with a decisive narrowing of already negligible space. connor thanks him, apologizes to him, and pleads to him with a ghosting of lips over his own, the trailing press fleeting compared to their overt display at the ball. the moment it's there it's gone.)
No matter what happens.