saviorexe: (Default)
oh my rA9, it's robojesus. ([personal profile] saviorexe) wrote2018-09-04 06:13 pm

INBOX.



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fessus: (Pong)

[personal profile] fessus 2018-12-17 08:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Mm... Yeah, I guess. I did a lot of dumb stuff back then for attention anyway, though. [ Rebelled, sneaked out whenever he could, drew on old paintings, acted out towards Gladio and some of his other attendants... Occasionally his father would scold him, too often he'd be too busy and would simply ignore him instead. ]

Honestly? I don't really regret any of that. Later...

I should've been around more. I asked him if I could move out on my own and he said yes, but I still could've stopped by more. [ He glances up, then, clearly hitting a wall with his own awkwardness with the subject. ]

Do you... you know. Wanna' talk about Carl some more?
fessus: (Minecraft)

[personal profile] fessus 2018-12-18 06:56 pm (UTC)(link)
... yeah. I can. [ And isn't that just the salt in the wound? It's kept him awake more than one night here even if he doesn't want to fully rest his finger on the reasoning behind it. Sure, he shouldn't blame himself for being unable to predict the attack; that much even he can admit to readily now that he's had the time to process it. But... ]

I knew he was dying, before that. As my old man... it was hard. [ With the unsaid words hanging obviously between them. As a king it was hard in a different way -- Regis's death meant Noctis's ascension, in addition to the pain of losing his last known family member. ]

What made you the happiest with him? Thinking about that stuff's what makes it easier for me, even if it takes a while for it to set in.
fessus: (Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2)

[personal profile] fessus 2018-12-19 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Noctis is entirely silent as Markus speaks, brow knitting at the word "weak" but then he supplies the gentler follow-up. There's emotion in his voice, wholly human, subtle and unaffected but that's what sticks out to Noctis and that's what makes him want to smile, even if it tightens his chest.

His hand braces against the back of that couch as he finally slides forward onto one of the cushions as if he plans to reach out to him, moving closer--

--but he halts, out of his element and wondering if he's pushing too far.
]

... you sound really proud of him. We've both got a lot to live up to... so maybe that's why it feels like a long time ago. Because you're already starting to change to do that.
fessus: (Star Fox)

[personal profile] fessus 2018-12-23 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
[ That hand drops onto a shoulder that immediately hitches under its weight, having to take a moment to consciously force himself to relax. It takes all of the willpower he has to then return the gesture with a touch of his own to signal to Markus that he's comfortable with this and that it's meaningful to him. It's the least he can do... or would be, if the part of Markus at this angle most readily available weren't his leg, and Noctis bounces his hand in an awkward pat and speedy retreat after placing it on his thigh.

Wow. That was the worst.
]

Uh... I dunno, yet. I think in some ways, but it's hard to know how much of that is me doing what I want to do and growing to make better choices, or... just doing what I have to do. I've barely had time to stop and think.